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Romany it's Hobday in Warwickshire

Paul did you come off it by cutting it down slowly?
Hope you stay well xx

Oh the Hobdays! :-) Whenever I see Hobdays petshop in Southam, I think of them, they owned it (not sure if its still in the family). Paul, did you feel different when you came off them?

No!

To be honest, I kept forgetting to take them!

So I decided to stop taking them completely after a discussion with the doctor.

I'm not 100%, still suffer from anxiety, but I'm getting them.

That's good to hear Paul....I kept forgetting to take mine before, then just stopped....I know I shouldn't have but I seemed to be okay....till recently.

Ann.....I have walked from here into town once before....It's a killer..maybe once I get fitter I can do it but like you said, couldn't buy much then. Maybe a walk in but bus back.....

that's it - walk in and bus back then you can buy as much as you want! Nice to see you on here Paul - you are the first fellow brave enough to come on - welcome aboard!

No Ann, Dave was here as well .xx

oops sorry Dave, didn't see you there - you must have been in a dark corner!

Hi folks, I was in the Citalopram club too but haven't taken them for a long time as they didn't make any difference. I was prescribed them for my ocd problems. I have been prescribed many different antidepressants over the years for the depression but not constant medication as it used to come and go, however it manifested itself in ocd hoarding which brings me down and is causing so much trouble between me and o.h. as I am filling his very small house with my stuff too, as well as my own uninhabited house being full.

A friend who had trained as a psychiatric nurse once told me if I knew what caused the depression I was more likely to come out of it quickly if I could resolve the problem, but that isn't easy so I bounce up and down and get through life as best I can. Lack of support from o.h. doesn't help altho in fairness he has been ok this week, strange that when I have a physical problem, ie. uti, he can be ok, but a mental one he thinks I should just pull myself together!
Jules, why not make a deal with yourself, when/if you feel like selfharming, make yourself wait 10 minutes while you pm or put up a thread, then maybe we can distract you. I am always around late so would be happy to talk to you by pm if not on here, and you might think twice about the action then. Just a suggestion, not trying to trivialise how you feel at that time.
Take care everyone,
as 'they' say, keep taking the tablets, or not if you are contrary like me lol
Lizxx

~~~~~~ to Liz xxx

HI Liz.....Thank you. I sat here last night, after midnight flicking from chat to general but over the past few months I haven't posted as much, not felt like I belong much anymore...only been a member 4 years...lol...really could have done with someone then but I finally got to sleep.

When I think those thoughts of doing something to myself I think of my 5 yo daughter....that usually brings me out of it......She keeps me going bless her.

Jules think of your daughters lovely soft perfect skin. Keep yours the same xxx
Love Carole

Liz, your OH is like many people who don't see depression as an illness. My mother used t say 'all in the mind, she should pull herself together', then after a major op she too suffered for a while with depression. Never heard her make that comment again.

Maybe your OH is so healthy that he just can't understand why you have problems. I am not saying he is right or that I agree, just some people are like that no comprehension at all. and it must be really difficult if you are like that to see he hoarding of things, filling his house and disrupting his cosy life as an illness. Did you suffer from this when you first started going with him?

Ann
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Ann
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Jules, no excuse now, you know where I am, you know I will talk if I am on line. And you do belong as much as anyone does.

Ann
Glos

God Bless Prozac - bottled sunshine for me through the dark, damp, gloomy, miserable days of winter.

hi man in kent. come on in sit down let it all out xx

Hello Everyone:o)))

l'm on citolapram as well 20mg once a day - can l join the club:o)))

l have spoken to a number of you before and everyone has been so nice:o)))
l'm feeling loads better, and this past few days have actually got up about 8am again:o)) but will probably stay on them this time for a while (docs instructions).
My depression started mainly because of my mums death in 1981, have always lacked confidence, been anxious etc and all that got worse and came back with avengence when my son was committed to a mental hospital, basically for smoking pot!!! l got loads better and even more so when l moved here to Wales. Sadly l got let down badly by someone on here and ended up back on tabs and had to give up work (which l loved), got better again and a few months ago my son tried to come off his tabs and ended up in a pyschotic staight again. He's been through hell and back and is still not completely 100%, prob about 80-85% - he a very determined young man fortunately:o)))
l can't work now, l get meself into too much of a staight - l do voluntary work, that way l can do as l want:o))

Its been amazing reading through everyones posts.
No one should feel embarrassed or guilty with the way they feel. It is an illness. Its in my family - l have 3 sister - one in particular who is sometimes very bad, another who will shut herself away and drink, the other about the same as me.. My grandfather committed suicide and l have just found 2 2nd cousins who are very poorly
It really is such a common illness.

Well done to everyone for talking on here today - thing with me is once l start l can go on for ever - sorry - lol

Take care:o)

jude sarf wales :o) xx

Hello Jude. Good to see you xx

Well, I go off to answer the phone and decide to make a cuppa and come back to 4 pages. Lot more suffering than I thought. It started for me when neurologist said he didn't think it was MS but nerve damage to my spinal cord, wham, it was like something had hit me hard in the stomach. This meant I would always be like this, legs not listening to my head, and 'oh by the way, you have two slipped discs now'. That was bad as my hobby was walking and bird watching, I seemed to go down from then on. When they told me I had secondary breast cancer then, I just got lost in a big black cloud, couldn't see any way out. My hubby took me to see our doctor, I just trailed behind him putting up no resistance, which I would have done normally. She said she knew me as a strong person and was shocked when she saw me, that's when she started me on the tablets. Didn't do much good though. Neurologist sent me to see a Macmillans nurse for pain management, she had a doctor in with her and I will always be grateful to him. He said I had so many health problems that I would never cope on my own and made an appointment with a psychologist for me.
She comes to my house and I have learned a lot of things about myself, mainly that I am still trying to act like before I was ill, I feel guilty because of what I can't do and hubby has to do it. She made me think of what I can do and be proud of it, I've started to listen to the different doctors when they say I am coping well, instead of thinking 'but I want to walk again'. My neurologist was very impressed with me last time he saw me, I went in on my crutches, struggling but walking. He said anybody else in my position would have given up long ago and been in wheelchair permanently, I don't see it like that now, as long as I can make my legs work, I am exercising them, my wheelchair is for shopping and such.
I am improving slowly but surely, the people on here have helped me a lot, and I can now see a future, not a very nice one as yet, but I can see it, whereas before I had none.
There are loads of different reasons why folks get depressed, and I have found out that talking to someone who knows helps enormously.
Sorry if I've rambled on, didn't mean to write so much but it wouldn't stop.
Took ages as well, the phone has gone 3 times so we might be up to page 6 for all I know.

Caz xx

I tried st johns wort but it did do any good, but then I found I hadn't taken a strong enough dose. Prozac made me have panic attacs.